Memories, why are you so unstable?

Memories! Its a tricky part of life. They either make you feel good or make you emotional. Some memories haunt you whereas some fills up your eyes nostalgically. But more often, \’memories\’ is a word related to tough times in the past and some moments which you really don\’t want to think again. That is exactly the reason why people say \”I hate my memories.\” I was talking to one of my close friends from college last day and we were talking about college and how we miss the group. That is the kind of memory which makes you nostalgic and makes you feel good.

Memories is a word which is linked to places, songs, certain phrases, words, talking style, color, numbers, lifestyle objects etc. A mug which you got as a birthday gift when you were in school can take you back to the school life; not just the person who gifted you but a whole lot of good and bad episodes. Its nostalgic. Likewise, if you have studied outside your hometown, say Delhi, and when you come across any news related to that city, everything in your college days come to your mind no matter how busy you are. Those kinda memories are what people wish to hold in life because its remembering the good old time with friends or even family.

Every coin has two sides, so does memories. I mentioned in the beginning, memories are often related to tough times and bad thoughts which haunts you down. Its funny to observe that no bad memory is being created. We do things which looks good at that moment. For example, you make out with your lover cause you are crazily in love but if the relationship ends, it is a memory which you never wanna think. That is why I call memories as the tricky part of life. Memories are like a jigsaw puzzle. When you are doing the puzzle, it feels good but when the final output comes, it can either be good or too good. You get the irony, don\’t you?

A film which released recently has inspired me a lot. I have been watching every interview of its cast and crew in TV and youtube because it makes me believe that one day I can also reach where I want to. But the fact that they belong to a place which I really don\’t want to remember or get connected with at any point of my life. You may think its silly and I am running away, you may think the allergic to that place will go as life progress but as of now, every time I hear that place\’s name, it kinda takes me to the blue-painted interiors and eating pizza. Every time I hear that place\’s name, it takes me to the railway station, wheezing, talking and waiting for the train. To make it worse, thrice I heard the city\’s name from a different state which is related to the same incident in my life.

I was driving back home today from a meeting and I was thinking how badly I got affected when I heard that city\’s name. I started thinking whether I get memories from my college life when someone talk about Chennai or when someone talk about Mumbai. Its then I realized that memories can flow in with the slightest of relation to the incident. All of us try to remember only the good part of past and taking the bad side of it as a lesson. But there are situations like this, where the city\’s name or an object take you to the other side of memories. It can even be a song which drags you back! So powerful, memories are. So confusing, they are.

Memories, I tell you, are tricky.