A note to my close friends.

This is almost like a personal write up to few of my close friends. It\’s not my problem, if you find it cheesy cause I am an open sea when it comes to controlling emotions! I have disturbed most of you in the past one month or so with my problems and quite visibly have annoyed you enough. Its not a letter of apology but a token of gratitude from deep inside my heart. I would always remember each and everyone of you who showed great patience to me especially three of them. I am not naming anyone but you do know who you all are, don\’t you? 😉

Many times I have come across the question of why do I have so many female friends and not much male friends. I don\’t have an answer to it. For some odd reason, I have never felt comfortable with sharing my issues with guys. It is a funny thing to hear but I am not ashamed or embarrassed by it. I do trust guys and I do have them in my best friends list. But the list of guys whom I trust is just three; Joel, Ananthu and Soubhagya. I do share almost all my issues with Joel but not much with the other two. Yet, when I need a hug, I run to Ananthu\’s house and when I get depressed at night, I text Soubhagya. I can easily tell, I had some of the best evenings of my life with Sob, when I was in Mumbai. So much memories in a short span of time. Apart from these three whom I met at various points of my life, I did have good guy friends. I mean, I have trusted quite a lot but well the experiences were quite hard, even professionally. Coming to that, I love some guys around whom I met in course of my professional life. They are amazing! 

Like I said, I have a lot of females in my closed friends list. But not everybody has understood me completely and I am not close to everyone! Some pretend and some text only when they are in trouble. I have no complains. Its a good feeling to be remembered when one is in trouble. But as the past one month progressed, I found myself changing for my own good. Two-three days back, I realized that, I was missing the old me, when I spoke to one of my schoolmates after long. That person was of the opinion that I was so mentally strong in school and no matter what issues I had, I never mixed it up with my professional life. Oh well, I did that in the past three-four months. I felt really bad about myself thinking all that and I knew I had to change. Slowly, I started re-building a new, but old, world around me; filled with books, music and movies. Talking to my old friends made me feel comfortable and one fine morning, I sent a voice note to my friend who must have been busy flirting around in USA that I miss her and the our old troupe of friends. It was a week of reality check on where I stand and where should I correct myself. I changed for bad but well, just like what Neena told to VP, love can make anyone weak. 

I just want to thank each and everyone of you so deeply from the bottom of my heart for bearing all the tantrums I showed in the last one month. Its been a difficult phase and its not over yet but I have found a ray of light somewhere far. Its just a matter of time for me to reach that light. I also want to tell that if I don\’t reply you people on time, don\’t feel bad, its just that I got some work and its keeping me quite busy these days. Career is more important, you see! 😉